Experimentation-flour legs.

I have came to the point in my practice where I can fell myself losing where I am within my work, I have ideas and experiments in which I am excited to explore with, however I am waiting on deliveries for the materials in which I would need to start these. Therefore, with the deadline for our formative assessments for our degree show coming up shortly, I fell like I am pressurising myself which has in a result made me fell as if I am in this weird lost space.

After many days of procrastinating I decided I needed to take myself to the studio so I could just create without thinking. Therefore as a response of being back I returned to a previous experiment I had made for my 'Beauty: the bitter truth' (2020) project, however this time with flour in tights instead of foam. (I had used foam in tights to represent a humans legs, in a response to viewing Sarah Lucas's 'Pauline Bunny' (1997) sculpture in 2016 at Tate in Liverpool.)

Within the making I noticed how the flour was much more manipulative. In this I was able to lump the tights together to form a sculpture which represented how I feel when sat down. I cried after making that experiment, as it hit me much more then I had previously expected. The work almost represented a self portrait, it gave me a outer view of myself, one in which I have never really seen nor reflected on before. As much of an impact as these experiments had on me, they also helped me greatly. I left that day with a smile on my face and hope for my future practice again. It not only shown me I was worthy, it also shown me that fat is just a substance, as much as I may have seen my body reflected upon the stool, the truth is I did not see myself. I merely saw the outer shell of my body. My body does not define who I am, but it does keep me alive and full of passion for what I create and I am forever grateful for this. I love my body, and I love myself.

(UPDATE: All the flour which is used in my projects was purchased previously to Covid-19 and I have done all I can to recycle all the flour I am using.)

[Stool, nude tights, flour]

80cm x 105cm x 90cm